SUICIDAL THOUGHTS (NO ONE'S HOME) - Ryan Oakes/Chrissy Costanza.mp3

[00:00.000] 作词 : Ryan Oakes/Jayden Seeley
[00:00.105] 作曲 : Ryan Oakes/Jayden Seeley
[00:00.210]Lyrics by：Ryan Oakes/Jayden Seeley
[00:00.380]Composed by：Ryan Oakes/Jayden Seeley
[00:00.540]Oh it's quiet in the evening
[00:04.600]Dust on the ceiling
[00:07.250]Knock on the door but no one's home
[00:11.140]Feel myself slipping
[00:11.980]And I hop in the whip
[00:13.310]Thinking a night drive will settle me
[00:14.810]And I'll get a grip
[00:15.950]I put my foot down on the gas
[00:17.300]And now I'm starting to drift
[00:18.560]And I can feel my heart beating deep
[00:20.070]Inside of my ribs
[00:21.140]Going over all scenarios
[00:22.560]And all the what-if's
[00:23.740]I think that it's about time
[00:25.000]I try to give 'em they wish
[00:26.420]I'm thinking 'bout a way to end it
[00:27.840]So it's painless and quick
[00:29.080]And go from someone they know
[00:30.200]Into somebody they'll miss
[00:31.710]I could hit a brick wall
[00:32.840]Like all the ones that I built
[00:34.250]Around myself or maybe swallow down
[00:35.670]A bottle of pills
[00:36.820]But maybe not
[00:37.480]'Cause I can't even learn to swallow the guilt
[00:39.400]Or tell my therapist the way
[00:40.700]I ******* actually feel
[00:42.020]Homie ****'s getting real
[00:43.300]'Cause I'm sick of the pain
[00:44.620]Got the drive inside of me
[00:45.910]From never catching a break
[00:47.190]It's an infection I can feel it
[00:48.560]Spreading out in my veins
[00:49.900]And the only to beat it is accepting my fate
[00:52.730]Oh it's quiet in the evening
[00:56.650]Dust on the ceiling
[00:59.380]I wrote a note to all I've known
[01:04.260]Was never the right time
[01:07.300]I said my goodbyes
[01:09.860]Knock on the door but no one's home
[01:13.610]I'm exhausted from circling inside of my head
[01:15.990]I'm feeling nauseous struggling
[01:17.310]With catching my breath
[01:18.570]100-pound weight buried deep inside of my chest
[01:21.180]I'm going round eight
[01:22.100]Waking up and covered in sweat
[01:23.720]With nothing left to give
[01:25.070]And nothing left to lose
[01:26.380]I'm thinking this is it
[01:27.630]It's time to make my move
[01:29.020]I rip out every stitch
[01:30.260]Open up all my wounds
[01:31.610]To feed the emptiness
[01:32.870]I got a date with fumes
[01:34.290]I'm filling my garage with carbon monoxide
[01:36.590]While I'm on the phone with the suicide hotline
[01:39.180]Telling 'em my life sucks
[01:40.420]I'm ready to swap sides
[01:41.850]And when I'm gone time
[01:42.950]Will keep on moving clockwise
[01:44.610]Nah
[01:45.150]I'ma end this with the way it started
[01:47.400]The Hollywood way
[01:48.650]They can milk and market
[01:50.090]A knife from my back to my wrist and carve it
[01:52.720]And finally give myself a red carpet
[01:55.030]Damn
[01:55.460]Oh it's quiet in the evening
[01:59.310]Dust on the ceiling
[02:01.950]I wrote a note to all I've known
[02:06.890]Was never the right time
[02:09.800]I said my goodbyes
[02:12.390]Knock on the door but no one's home
[02:17.010]Tap on the window
[02:17.760]I thought that the reaper
[02:18.430]Was tucking me into my bed
[02:19.730]It was a cop and the way
[02:20.810]That he found me
[02:21.430]He thought he was pulling out somebody dead
[02:23.060]Calling me lucky and telling me
[02:24.250]Somebody's coming to put me together again
[02:26.370]Suddenly something was changing
[02:27.470]I'm feeling like I can see
[02:28.510]Life through a different lens
[02:30.110]Now it's all hitting me
[02:30.880]What was I thinking
[02:31.490]Thought I didn't wanna survive
[02:32.910]Hard to believe a coincidence didn't just happen
[02:34.770]And all of this wasn't a sign
[02:36.400]But in that time is
[02:37.390]When I noticed that I felt alive
[02:39.520]I had to cheat death to realize
[02:41.400]I didn't wanna die