[00:02.33]Yeah, uh huh, lord, yeah, alright, yeah, huh[00:13.09]I am fatigued[00:14.19]I give it my all with the music[00:15.45]People do not recognize[00:16.48]The passion I have for the craft[00:17.68]The effort I'm givin' with every line[00:19.20]That I write a ridiculous[00:20.17]Life has affected my content[00:21.34]All of the sins that would sit on my conscience[00:22.87]Insecurities that I am possessin'[00:24.56]Why is my death been a constant obsession[00:26.21]I am reflectin'[00:27.07]Thinkin' about the life that I chose[00:28.00]And the path of the young n**** moving on[00:29.50]And I been down and out[00:30.30]'Cause I was looking for the answer[00:31.26]But never really had no questions[00:32.52]Tell me that I'm accepted[00:33.39]I'm gettin' sick and tired of rejection[00:34.49]I said I can't deal with the nonsense[00:35.55]The pain been constant[00:36.62]I wish I wasn't this depressed[00:37.46]So I can deal with the stress[00:38.40]I feel at all times[00:39.30]I'm debatin' what the f*** I'mma do with the cadence[00:40.80]I hope it isn't weak[00:41.40]N****, I can take it deep to the depths of your soul[00:43.10]With the list of my goals[00:43.95]That I could never attain[00:44.82]And you would take it in vain[00:45.50]I tried to explain[00:46.35]And givin' you my pain[00:47.00]Take a listen to the record and tell me I'm insane[00:48.80]With the way that I was raised[00:49.65]I swear that I've been trained[00:50.42]Prepared to be alone[00:51.06]I pray that I can atone[00:51.97]I've been lookin' for the meaning of life[00:53.10]With the voice in my head[00:53.87]Tryna get it all right[00:54.61]I can never get a light[00:55.55]When I felt that I needed it[00:56.58]Proceeded with my genius[00:57.71]Conceivin' this[00:58.37]The meanest s***[00:59.10]Your will will bend the pain to end[01:00.25]The second that a nigga picked up the pen[01:01.40]I guess it all depends upon the mood that I'm in[01:03.18]And the mind-state in which that I write this[01:04.51]Puttin' my time in[01:05.30]I redefine what it means[01:06.34]Commended for my dedication[01:07.69]You never related[01:08.51]Relayin' my pain in the passages[01:09.60]Written on pages[01:10.42]This scripture for sinners[01:11.29]This sentence can save 'em[01:12.09]I give you the truth[01:12.70]And it's never debated[01:13.58]Degraded by hatred[01:14.48]And giving your ignorant comment deceitful[01:16.04]Accomplice the reason my life is abolished[01:18.04]Lawd![01:19.32]I'm writin' a story that you couldn't fathom, yeah[01:22.32]I'm givin' a vision that you can't imagine , yeah[01:24.78]Do I wanna live is the question that I have been asking[01:26.92]All of the pain that I put in my lyrics[01:28.28]I wonder can anybody really grasp it, lawd[01:30.92]Yeah, you're wondering what is my thesis[01:34.08]Yeah, you're wondering what is my thesis[01:37.30]Yeah, you're wondering what is my thesis[01:39.68]Why am I lonely when people are phony[01:41.20]I felt like I needed someone to believe in, lawd![01:43.32]Tell me that you want the real shit[01:44.50]Then take a second to listen and you'll feel this[01:46.23]As I reminisce on my self-esteem[01:47.83]That would evaporate in my adolescence[01:49.54]Turned introspective[01:50.32]Felt so dejected[01:51.17]I should use a noose as my newest necklace[01:52.66]I'mma set the scene from my wildest dreams[01:54.36]And I was headed for the valley of the shadow of death[01:56.01]I wanna be the mother****er you define as the best[01:57.50]With a rhyme to attest[01:58.44]Releasin' all stress[01:59.24]I confess that I speak a life from my view[02:00.82]With deceive and disciple[02:01.70]The blood and the pew[02:02.40]We stained the white flag that you use for truces[02:03.96]All bets are off[02:04.79]There's no more illusions[02:05.71]And anyone wanna get a division is confusin'[02:07.28]I wanna a nigga rid and I wanted to infuse him[02:08.85]My flows amusin'[02:09.64]Niggas are so clueless[02:10.19]Blind to all facts[02:11.10]And don't know what truth is[02:12.03]I put it on wax[02:12.83]And backtrack maneuvers[02:13.51]Atrocities that you associated[02:15.20]All my ****ing pain has been irregulated[02:16.69]In my isolation I was hesitatin'[02:18.21]I am terrified that I will never make it[02:19.87]Life is so evasive[02:20.63]I could make a statement[02:21.41]I'mma signify what this shit really mean[02:23.04]And that's another part that you will never get[02:24.56]Unless I paint a picture[02:25.39]You could visualize it[02:26.18]That was so surprising[02:27.02]Nigga I'm comprisin'[02:27.88]Lots of iller shit for you to realize[02:30.05]That I am so lonely[02:31.75]I am so lonely[02:33.28]I am so lonely[02:34.01]Lawd![02:34:89]Lawd![02:35.83]I'm writin' a story that you couldn't fathom, yeah[02:39.11]I'm givin' a vision that you can't imagine , yeah[02:41.56]Do I wanna live is the question that I have been asking[02:43.80]All of the pain that I put in my lyrics[02:45.30]I wonder can anybody really grasp it, lawd[02:47.62]Yeah, you're wondering what is my thesis[02:50.74]Yeah, you're wondering what is my thesis[02:54.08]Yeah, you're wondering what is my thesis[02:56.48]Why am I lonely when people are phony[02:57.97]I felt like I needed someone to believe in, lawd!