Toxic Thoughts (Nightcore) - Sinnon Nightcore/Faith Marie.mp3

[00:00.00] 作曲 : Sinnon Nightcore/Faith Marie
[00:00.00] I start this off staring at a blank page
[00:37.65]An open office document
[00:39.03]A blinking cursor
[00:39.78]Passing days
[00:40.41]Without a single word
[00:42.03]Some say it's absurd
[00:43.14]Like I float along a stream of words unsaid
[00:45.18]Choosing not to cast my net
[00:46.68]But I spend so long questioning myself
[00:48.96]If this isn't right
[00:50.16]Then does that mean I failed?
[00:51.39]Will my melodies ever live up
[00:52.89]Will my metaphors be profound enough
[00:54.54]Will I ever outdo myself
[00:55.95]The ceiling gets higher and higher
[00:57.54]It's harder and harder to shatter
[00:59.04]And when I fall
[01:00.03]I fall worse than I ever did before
[01:02.07]Evaluating the damage no I just don't understand it
[01:04.95]Conflicted by the very air I breathe
[01:06.96]A love with hatred laced between
[01:08.34]You can see it in my eyes
[01:10.89]A child's spark lights up the night
[01:13.02]Constant search for approval, suffocated by refusal
[01:15.99]Devouring my skull but never feeling full
[01:19.23]Oh, dear I don't wanna be a burden
[01:21.78]But could you please be a little more concerned with
[01:24.18]The overactive mind of a believer
[01:26.91]The toxic thoughts of an overachiever
[01:30.09]Oh, dear if only you could feel it
[01:32.61]The crippling fear of being deserted
[01:35.16]You can't touch the heat of this fever
[01:37.80]The toxic thoughts of an overachiever
[01:46.26]I start this off a little confused
[01:48.45]Writers block doesn't exist
[01:49.71]It's not a word I'm supposed to use
[01:51.09]Because it's all in my mind
[01:52.44]A parasite I'm supposed to find
[01:53.91]But sometimes
[01:54.81]Well most times
[01:55.50]It's so hard to define
[01:56.55]So I pour a couple drinks
[01:58.02]Getting drunk on gasoline
[01:59.34]Fire pulses in my veins
[02:00.63]I'm sick of waiting for the day
[02:01.89]That courage overtakes my brain
[02:03.30]For someone to say it's okay
[02:04.65]I've lived my whole life afraid
[02:06.06]It's time for me to be brave
[02:07.53]To embrace a forest
[02:08.88]That's so dark and unknown
[02:10.11]Because no great adventurer has a paved path to roam
[02:12.90]They pave as they go
[02:13.98]Disappointed gazes leaving poisoned bread crumb traces
[02:16.47]I'm not taking the bait
[02:17.70]Let them rot in their place
[02:19.08]I deserve to be alright
[02:21.75]I deserve to sleep at night
[02:23.82]I'm my closest friend, I remind myself again
[02:26.55]Better treat her well, 'cause she's with me till the end
[02:29.97]Oh, dear I don't wanna be a burden
[02:32.46]But could you please be a little more concerned with
[02:34.92]The overactive mind of a believer
[02:37.68]The toxic thoughts of an overachiever
[02:40.83]Oh, dear if only you could feel it
[02:43.35]The crippling fear of being deserted
[02:45.87]You can't touch the heat of this fever
[02:48.54]The toxic thoughts of an overachiever
[03:02.01]Sometimes I forget the feeling
[03:03.54]Of every single nerve tingling
[03:05.01]Better than any lovers touch
[03:06.27]I've created tears of pain and burns of lust
[03:08.28]I've created a forest a safe place for myself
[03:10.05]That others have found
[03:10.92]Some attempt to destroy and others feed the ground
[03:12.99]Fertilize my mind with melodies and rhymes
[03:15.81]A sorcerer of time, take you back to the night
[03:17.49]When you pondered your death when somebody left
[03:19.08]When you lie awake broken 'cause your head is unkept
[03:20.79]And let me remind you
[03:22.50]That everything is temporary
[03:24.24]You and I are temporary
[03:25.47]And this feeling that's so scary
[03:26.88]Someday you'll realize that thoughts so heavy
[03:28.71]Don't mean you're unsteady
[03:29.46]But that you're only getting ready to say nice to meet you
[03:31.65]To somebody you never knew
[03:34.92]You