[00:00.000] 作曲 : Shannon Taylor[00:12.582]I couldn't get my life back[00:18.848]I couldn't get my life back, I couldn't save myself[00:25.601]All the words of my mother hang heavy over me[00:31.807]It's summer in Texas, 2003[00:38.037]I dissociate, the world around me fades[00:44.013]There is no self if there is no one else[00:50.339]So I isolate and suppress discomfort[00:56.354]And I sacrifice any shred of my own self-worth[01:02.342]While I put so much faith in my open eyes[01:08.617]I have never felt so lonely and desperate[01:16.970]I couldn't get my life back[01:23.002]I couldn't get my life back, I didn't stand a chance[01:30.071]All the pain within my past weighs heavy on my heart[01:36.069]The euphoria won't last, it'll tear your life apart[01:42.025]I feel the same; the world around me changed[01:48.185]It is a mess, and I could not make sense[01:54.416]Of this brave new world I navigate alone[02:00.419]Or my hyper-vulnerability I now call home[02:06.398]'Cause I put so much trust in their shifting words[02:12.408]And I have never felt so stupid and useless before[02:51.629]But it is all my fault[02:58.137]I never should have trusted them[03:04.937]It's easy to smile and wave, to tell them one thing to their face[03:11.868]It's hard to tell the truth[03:17.800]Yeah, it is all my fault[03:24.569]But how could I have known that[03:31.116]What people call low self-esteem is really just seeing yourself[03:37.359]The way other people see you?[03:42.543]I couldn't get my life back[03:48.796]I couldn't get my life back[03:55.455]I couldn't get my life back[04:01.969]I couldn't get my life back