Bastard - JayDaYoungan.mp3

[00:13.558](The Heroz)
[00:15.672](Lako, you a fool for this shit)
[00:17.807](Red Jon)
[00:29.295](HeartBeatz on the track)
[00:30.093]My heart colder than Alaska
[00:31.164]Living life without a father, shit was hard, I never knew I'd be a bastard
[00:35.183]In love with the streets, shit, I ain't wanna leave, ain't never knew I'd be a rapper
[00:38.650]Fell in love with music, I used to distribute, I'm supposed to be a trapper
[00:42.624]Look me in my eyes, tell me what you see
[00:46.612]Pain, this shit run deep
[00:48.211]I swear, I'm so tired of this shit 'til I'm weak
[00:50.324]I ain't been able to sleep
[00:52.195]I've been so paranoid, this shit creep
[00:54.057]I just been praying the Lord give me peace
[00:55.677]I gotta keep a rod close to me
[00:57.525]Sometimes it just be hard just to eat
[00:59.920]They don't wanna see me win
[01:01.516]It's hard to keep some friends
[01:03.118]I'm tryna keep my mind focused, I'm tryna find peace again
[01:06.858]I lay down with one of my eyes open, the reaper been pulling me in
[01:11.125]Lord, forgive me for all of my sins
[01:12.721]Lord, forgive me for all of my sins
[01:15.117]Momma know I'm living reckless, she sent me a message like "Son, be safe"
[01:18.324]Going back and forth to court, I've been stressing, thank God, I won the case
[01:22.033]In the boxing ring, it's just me and depression, I'm fighting this shit everyday
[01:25.747]All these demons won't leave me alone, think it's better if I be alone
[01:30.029]I know 12 wanna throw me in jail, I've been walking a straight line
[01:33.768]In my cell, I was stuck with no bail, living life through FaceTime
[01:37.752]Thought you ****ed with me, but I can't tell, all you did was waste time
[01:44.401]I'm exhausted
[01:45.733]They tend to **** over me often
[01:47.334]Every time I get up, I keep falling
[01:48.925]What you mean? Bitch, you know I'm still balling
[01:50.781]Get the green, like I played up in Boston
[01:52.919]Walk through the storm and it rained on me
[01:55.329]Kept it real through it all and they changed on me
[01:56.936]But don't know why they always put the blame on me
[01:58.524]Still rode for them until my tank was on E
[02:00.392]My heart colder than Alaska
[02:02.001]Living life without a father, shit was hard, I never knew I'd be a bastard
[02:05.736]In love with the streets, shit, I ain't wanna leave, ain't never knew I'd be a rapper
[02:09.450]Fell in love with music, I used to distribute, I'm supposed to be a trapper
[02:13.457]Look me in my eyes, tell me what you see
[02:17.192]Pain, this shit run deep
[02:19.062]I swear, I'm so tired of this shit 'til I'm weak
[02:21.198]I ain't been able to sleep
[02:22.811]I've been so paranoid, this shit creep
[02:24.668]I just been praying the Lord give me peace
[02:26.525]I gotta keep a rod close to me
[02:28.382]Sometimes it just be hard just to eat