Suicidal Thoughts - Jake Hill/Josh A.mp3

[00:13.86]I'm not suicidal, I don't wanna ****ing die
[00:17.16]I just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
[00:20.14]But every day I feel like dying
[00:22.97]Every day I feel like dying (dying...)
[00:27.65]Why do I even try?
[00:28.68]Why do I even write lyrics about how I'm living the life when I'm battling pain and my demons at night
[00:33.45]Trying to find a new outlet
[00:34.81]The devil pouncin'
[00:35.74]I hear him howlin', my vision cloudin'
[00:37.31]Man I tried to escape but there ain't no way
[00:39.44]Try to be strong when I deal with the pain (yuh)
[00:41.35]But I'm ditching the coffin, so my family has options
[00:44.77]Gotta work till' I'm dead
[00:46.85]So that they get the best
[00:48.29]Don't wanna set up a bad example cause the kids looking up
[00:50.81]Can't leave in shambles can't make them think clocking out's ok
[00:53.05]So **** suicide I'm here to stay
[00:54.85]Try to free my mind
[00:56.30]I don't know what's right
[00:57.80]Wasting all my time, tryna find the light
[01:00.89]Try to free my mind
[01:03.05]I don't know what's right
[01:04.75]Wasting all my time, tryna find the light (Nah, man)
[01:08.83]I'll be out here runnin', I'll be runnin' from myself now
[01:11.98]Gunnin' demons down find my way out of this hell now
[01:15.55]I'll be runnin' now, I'll be runnin' from myself now
[01:18.89]Gunnin' demons down, find my way out of this hell now
[01:22.48]I'm not suicidal, I don't wanna ****ing die
[01:25.77]I just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
[01:28.73]But every day I feel like dying
[01:32.32]Every day I feel like dying (dying...)
[01:36.19]One too many bad thoughts inside me
[01:37.84]Got a hole in my heart put the past behind me
[01:39.38]I'm pressed with time, I'm stressed with life, my breath is ice
[01:41.98]I guess I might just bottle it up some more just like always
[01:44.57]Barely standing, crawling down the hallways
[01:46.35]Sink into my bed, with death inside my head
[01:49.76](Yeah) That note you found I didn't mean it
[01:51.41]Just wish I had a better sense of meaning
[01:53.06]Never meant to let you down
[01:54.03]I've been down now racing thoughts had to drown them out (****)
[01:57.03]Never giving in I swear to god, no matter how many times I pray to a god
[01:59.98]I don't believe in just to see if I will never wake up
[02:02.52]But he called my bluff
[02:03.61]Try to free my mind
[02:04.79]I don't know what's right
[02:06.45]Wasting all my time, tryna find the light
[02:09.88]Try to free my mind
[02:11.54]I don't know what's right
[02:13.26]Wasting all my time, tryna find the light
[02:16.62](nah, man)
[02:17.51]I'll be out here runnin', I'll be runnin' from myself now
[02:20.47]Gunnin' demons down find my way out of this hell now
[02:23.90]I'll be runnin' now, I'll be runnin' from myself now
[02:27.36]Gunnin' demons down, find my way out of this hell now
[02:31.03]I'm not suicidal, I don't wanna ****ing die
[02:34.27]I just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
[02:37.35]But every day I feel like dying
[02:40.88]Every day I feel like dying (dying...)
[02:44.66]I'm not suicidal, I don't wanna ****ing die
[02:47.98]I just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
[02:51.05]But every day I feel like dying
[02:54.62]Every day I feel like dying (dying...)