[00:00.000] 作曲 : Shannon Taylor[00:01.500]I tried to be someone else[00:03.792]To escape it all[00:06.272]It became an obsession[00:08.656]And I awoke in a world divorced from self[00:11.756]A false reimagining[00:13.705]Of which I am the subject[00:16.932]Shrouded in abstract[00:19.202]Conceptual intangibles[00:21.588]I know that I'm broken[00:23.897]And I play the part[00:26.477]Why try to get better?[00:28.792]I was born to tear myself apart[00:32.033]This lifelong dissonance[00:34.066]How could it mean nothing[00:37.037]I become a conceptInside of myself[00:42.895]All the failures of our fathers[00:48.086]Can't define us[00:52.173]If all that weight fell on our shoulders[00:57.961]Who could blame us?[01:01.639]I felt locked in a stigma beyond my control[01:06.242]And in my vulnerability[01:09.360]I am fed their words and I swallow them whole[01:12.027]Promised a way out, and I sign a contract[01:16.827]A widespread mandate[01:19.527]To suppress doubt and push it all inside[01:24.158]My endlessly lost heart and raging mind[01:29.976]Just keep it all inside[01:32.319]But the shame and trauma[01:34.494]How could it mean nothing?[01:37.179]It lives inside of me, rebuilds and restarts[01:43.218]All the failures of our fathers[01:48.304]Can't define us[01:52.200]If all that weight fell on our shoulders[01:58.326]Who could blame us?[02:03.116]Our anxieties and fears[02:07.952]Can't control us[02:12.260]If all their thoughts[02:14.676]Fall on deaf ears?[02:36.638]I erase these memories[02:40.944]And I try[02:44.238]To reconstruct myself to fit into this life[02:52.160]You might want to be someone else[02:55.981]But what good would that do?[02:59.291]You might want to be someone else[03:03.257]But what good would that do?[03:11.284]But what good would that do?[03:23.190]If all this weight falls on your shoulders?