[00:20.76]Yeah, now everybody tellin' me a lie[00:25.98]Lordie, give me something for my soul[00:28.68]See I don't wanna think of suicide[00:31.61]So please don't take the lock key off my door[00:34.64]See I been tired of ******g all these girls[00:37.83]And I been tired of spending all my dough[00:40.69]And if I give my story to the world[00:43.67]I wonder if they'd book me for a show[00:46.55]See you can't handle pressure on your own[00:49.45]So why you carry boulders by yourself[00:52.87]The story stole, they tell it till it wrong[00:55.73]And glorify the horror and the wealth[00:58.81]And mama call me tell me coming home[01:01.51]And I just need some guidance in my steps[01:04.72]I know i'm not the only one alone[01:07.67]I know i'm not the only one who felt[01:11.19]Heavenly father why are you so far away[01:16.88]Heavenly father why are you so far away[01:22.78]Heavenly father why are you so far away[01:28.52]Heavenly father why are you so far away[01:34.03]Yeah, I'm praying that I make it 25[01:37.38]They be calling doctors for my health[01:40.32]And "no" is kinda hard to say to drugs[01:43.13]Because I been having problems with myself[01:46.09]And I been asking questions, where the love?[01:49.17]And they don't give me answers just a check[01:51.95]And they don't know my issues as a child[01:54.97]Because I was busy cutting on myself[01:58.07]And hanging from the playground wasn't wrong[02:01.20]Until you got a rope up on your neck[02:03.83]And I been losing more than just my mind[02:06.52]Gathering whats left of self-respect[02:09.85]And daddy why you call me while you drunk?[02:12.66]And why you never love me when I need it[02:15.75]And I don't wanna be like you no more[02:18.63]And I been tryna cope I'm getting ****ed[02:21.68]Heavenly father why are you so far away[02:27.94]Heavenly father why are you so far away[02:33.90]Heavenly father why are you so far away[02:39.83]Heavenly father why are you so far away[02:44.37]Yeah, ay[02:45.89]I smoke too much, the problems of a 20 something[02:48.98]I drink too often, there's liquor pouring from the faucet[02:52.03]You would assume by following the tunes[02:54.66]That i'm doomed to die young, addicted to dry plum[02:57.45]These ******* ain't ***t and ***** is my greatest vice[03:00.44]I love smoking ****, I hate advice[03:03.68]I know some *****s that talk good[03:06.08]The wise men from a long line of ***** made and bridesmen[03:09.58]You never had nothing but ******g dreams[03:12.37]You just caught up in the hype[03:13.74]The fa***on and so it seems, the limelight[03:15.31]I know that I rhyme tight[03:17.52]No need for your 2 cents and burning your blueprints[03:20.56]These people think I really give a **** about the ***t they give a **** about[03:24.20]Just need a moment of silence, just close your ******g mouth[03:27.56]Infatuated with violence, gun in my ******g mouth[03:30.47]So you don't even know that i'm serious, know what im talking 'bout[03:33.44]Like you got punchlines for days[03:35.86]So generic your flow[03:37.35]You're too cold, you're aged[03:38.88]And you got punch lines for days[03:41.79]So generic your flow[03:43.26]You're too cold, you're aged[03:45.41][03:48.51]And they souls was never in it, like yeah[03:51.28][03:55.14]They souls was never in it like