[00:02.530]My tea's gone cold, I'm wondering why I got out of bed at all[00:08.140]the morning rain clouds up my window and I can't see at all[00:14.150]And even if I could it'd all be grey, but your picture on my wall[00:20.240]it reminds me that it's not so bad, it's not so bad[00:26.770]My tea's gone cold, I'm wondering why I got out of bed at all[00:32.160]the morning rain clouds up my window and I can't see at all[00:38.200]And even if I could it'd all be grey, but your picture on my wall[00:44.310]it reminds me that it's not so bad, it's not so bad[00:47.630][00:49.490]Dear Slim, I wrote you but you still ain't callin'[00:52.580]I left my cell, my pager, and my home phone at the bottom[00:55.640]I sent two letters back in autumn You must not have got 'em[00:58.570]There probably was a problem at the post office or somethin'[01:01.540][01:01.720]Sometimes I scribble addresses too sloppy when I jot 'em[01:04.520]But anyways, **** it, what's been up man, how's your daughter?[01:07.580]My girlfriend's pregnant too, I'm ‘bout to be a father[01:10.070]If I have a daughter, guess what I'm-a call her? I'm-a[01:12.850]name her Bonnie.[01:13.620][01:13.820]I read about your uncle Ronnie too, I'm sorry[01:16.410]I had a friend kill himself over some bitch who didn't want him.[01:19.520]I know you probably hear this everyday, but I'm your biggest fan.[01:22.820]I even got the underground shit that you did with Scam.[01:25.620][01:25.960]I got a room full of your posters and your pictures, man.[01:28.900]I like the shit you did with Ruckus too, that shit was phat.[01:31.800]Anyways, I hope you get this man, hit me back, just to chat[01:35.410]Truly yours, your biggest fan, this is Stan.[01:37.800][01:38.370]My tea’s gone cold, I'm wondering why I got out of bed at all[01:44.050]the morning rain clouds up my window and I can't see at all[01:50.030]And even if I could it'd all be grey, but your picture on my wall[01:56.090]it reminds me that it's not so bad, it's not so bad[02:00.370][02:01.230]Dear Slim, you still ain't called or wrote,[02:03.730]I hope you have the chance.[02:04.750]I ain't mad, I just think it's ****ed up you don't answer fans.[02:07.850]If you didn't want to talk to me outside your concert[02:10.470]You didn't have to but you could have signed an autograph for Matthew.[02:13.560]That's my little brother, man. He's only 6 years old.[02:15.720]We waited in the blistering cold for you for 4 hours and ya just said no.[02:19.810]That's pretty shitty man, you're like his ****ing idol[02:22.710]He wants to be just like you man, he likes you more[02:24.830]than I do.[02:25.520][02:25.700]I ain't that mad, though I just don't like bein' lied to.[02:28.550]Remember when we met in Denver, you said if I write you[02:31.480]You would write back. See, I'm just like you in a way.[02:33.820]I never knew my father neither.[02:35.630]He used to always cheat on my mom and beat her.[02:37.770][02:37.970]I can relate to what you're sayin' in your songs.[02:40.390]So when I have a shitty day, I drift away and put 'em on.[02:43.350]Cause I don't really got shit else, so that shit help when I'm depressed.[02:46.480]I even got a tattoo with your name across the chest.[02:49.170][02:49.590]Sometimes I even cut myself to see how much it bleeds.[02:52.600]It's like adrenaline. The Pain is such a sudden rush for me.[02:55.140]See, everything you say is real, and I respect you[02:58.000]'cause you tell it.[02:58.550]My girlfriend's jealous 'cause I talk about you 24/7.[03:01.530]But she don't know you like I know you, Slim, no one does.[03:04.330]She don't know what it was like for people like us growing up.[03:07.410]You've gotta call me man. I'll be the biggest fan[03:09.440]you'll ever lose.[03:10.250]Sincerely yours, Stan. PS: We should be together too.[03:13.380][03:13.550]My tea's gone cold, I'm wondering why I got out of bed at all[03:20.030]the morning rain clouds up my window and I can't see at all[03:26.030]And even if I could it'd all be grey, but your picture on my wall[03:32.040]it reminds me that it's not so bad, it's not so bad[03:36.810][03:37.050]Dear Mr. "I'm too good to call or write my fans"[03:40.270]This'll be the last package I ever send your ass.[03:43.390]It's been six months and still no word. I don't deserve it?[03:46.000]I know you got my last two letters, I wrote the addresses on 'em perfect.[03:49.480][03:49.670]So this is my cassette I'm sending you. I hope you hear it.[03:52.140]I'm in the car right now. I'm doing 90 on the freeway.[03:55.380]Hey Slim, "I drank a fifth of vodka, ya dare me to drive?"[03:58.900]You know that song by Phil Collins from "The Air In The Night"?[04:01.850]About that guy who could have saved that other guy fromdrowning?[04:04.690]But didn't? Then Phil saw it all then at his show he found him?[04:07.580]That's kinda how this is. You could have rescued me fromdrowning.[04:10.470]Now it's too late. I'm on a thousand downers now, I'm drowsy.[04:13.040][04:13.290]And all I wanted was a lousy letter or a call.[04:16.340]I hope you know I ripped all o' your pictures off the wall.[04:19.530]I love you Slim, we could have been together. Think about it.[04:22.920]You ruined it now, I hope you can't sleep and you dream about it.[04:26.050]And when you dream, I hope you can't sleep and you scream about it.[04:29.000]I hope your conscience eats at you and you can't breathe without me.[04:32.380]See Slim, shut up bitch, I'm trying to talk[04:34.560]Hey Slim, that's my girlfriend screaming in the trunk.[04:37.490]But I didn't slit her throat,[04:38.760]I just tied her up, see I ain't like you.[04:40.560]'Cause if she suffocates, she'll suffer more,[04:42.710]and then she'll die too.[04:43.880]Well, gotta go, I'm almost at the bridge now.[04:46.750]Oh shit, I forgot, how am I supposed to send this shit out?[04:49.800][04:50.740]screeching tires, crashing sounds, car splashes into thewater}[04:59.490][05:01.890]My tea's gone cold, I'm wondering why I got out of bed at all[05:08.060]the morning rain clouds up my window and I can't see at all[05:14.050]And even if I could it'd all be grey, but your picture on my wall[05:20.180]it reminds me that it's not so bad, it's not so bad[05:24.950][05:25.530]Dear Stan, I meant to write you sooner, but I've just been busy.[05:28.480]You said your girlfriend's pregnant now, how far along is she?[05:31.560]Look, I'm really flattered you would call your daughter that.[05:34.420]And here's an autograph for your brother:[05:36.010]I wrote it on your Starter cap.[05:37.590][05:37.880]I'm sorry I didn't see you at the show, I must have missed you.[05:40.910]Don't think I did that shit intentionally, just to diss you.[05:43.920]And what's this shit you said about you like to cut your wrists too?[05:47.050]I say that shit just clownin' dawg,[05:48.570]c'mon, how ****ed up is you?[05:49.900]You got some issues, Stan, I think you need some counselin'[05:52.550]To help your ass from bouncin' off the walls when you get down some.[05:55.720][05:56.120]And what's this shit about us meant to be together?[05:58.220]That type of shit'll make me not want us to meet each other.[06:01.450]I really think you and your girlfriend need each other.[06:04.400]Or maybe you just need to treat her better.[06:06.860]I hope you get to read this letter.[06:08.520]I just hope it reaches you in time.[06:10.330]Before you hurt yourself, I think that you'd be doin' just fine[06:13.290]If you'd relax a little. I'm glad that I inspire you, but Stan[06:16.460]Why are you so mad? Try to understand that I do want you as a fan.[06:20.070]I just don't want you to do some crazy shit.[06:22.530]I seen this one shit on the news a couple weeks ago that made me sick.[06:25.680]Some dude was drunk and drove his car over a bridge[06:28.470]And had his girlfriend in the trunk and she was[06:30.370]pregnant with his kid[06:31.350]And in the car they found a tape but it didn't say who it was to[06:34.360]Come to think about it...his name was...it was you.[06:37.550]Damn.[06:40.030][06:40.320]