[00:00.000] 作词 : Vincent Jacovelli[00:01.000] 作曲 : Vincent Jacovelli[00:10.971]Hey[00:11.769]Living like a mess tryna numb my pain[00:14.167]Battling the demons in my mind all day[00:16.820]Either I'm ****ed up or I'm insane[00:19.681]Pop a pill[00:20.206]Have a drink[00:20.752]Don't break down[00:21.804]Hey[00:22.605]Living like a mess tryna numb my pain[00:25.003]Battling the demons in my mind all day[00:27.907]Either I'm ****ed up or I'm insane[00:30.569]Pop a pill[00:31.098]Have a drink[00:31.633]Don't break down[00:32.700]Let's flashback to a moment in time[00:34.816]When I was just a troubled youth tryna cope with his mind[00:37.475]With psychedelics, ******* and some smoke on the side[00:40.401]When I was broken overdosed and was hoping to die (yeah)[00:43.584]I guess the damage of feeling ****ing abandoned[00:46.238]Left me torn so I was slamming like every drug I was handed[00:48.902]I'd manage till I ran out[00:50.234]Then ravage through my dads house[00:51.817]Gather all my shit so I could sell it for a bag now[00:54.746]I couldn't tell that I was losing myself[00:56.875]And that the drugs only added to confusion I felt[00:59.523]And when the homies hit me up I was refusing the help[01:02.174]Cause I was busy tryna make a ****ing noose with a belt[01:05.369]But I was lonely and sick of feeling depressed[01:08.022]I was running out of options and ways to cope with the stress[01:10.672]I thought I'd feel bliss when the reaper came to collect[01:13.339]Cause I'm done with the pain I'd rather hang to my death and say[01:16.523]Hey[01:17.056]Living like a mess tryna numb my pain[01:19.708]Battling the demons in my mind all day[01:22.367]Either I'm ****ed up or I'm insane[01:25.019]Pop a pill[01:25.555]Have a drink[01:26.097]Don't break down[01:27.147]Hey[01:28.214]Living like a mess tryna numb my pain[01:30.600]Battling the demons in my mind all day[01:33.251]Either I'm ****ed up or I'm insane[01:35.646]Pop a pill[01:36.444]Have a drink[01:36.979]Don't break down[01:38.567]I never thought that my life would end when I'm 17[01:40.964]Now I'm writing notes to my family I thought I'd never leave[01:43.619]But all this pain I've been feeling it's time to set it free[01:46.275]Time to turn this torturous life of mine to a severed dream[01:49.193]I waited till it was late and family was sleeping[01:51.589]Was thinking bout death I wasn't thinking bout 'em grieving[01:54.507]I thought that when they read the note they'd understand my reasons[01:56.891]So I crept downstairs time to finally conquer my demons[01:59.826]I grabbed the booze plus a bottle of pills[02:02.220]Ran 'em back up to my room feeling hollow with chills[02:04.875]Wasn't nervous I was ready I was confident still[02:07.734]Poured a dozen in my palm and started popping to kill (yeah)[02:11.187]I'm finally doing it[02:12.241]Time to call in the eulogist[02:13.574]I got what I deserved I took my life and I ruined it[02:16.449]30 minutes later my feelings started to fade[02:18.832]Went from falling out of love to falling into my grave[02:22.015]I'm getting woozy and passing out in my bed[02:24.145]I was fading in and out a few moments away from death[02:26.806]But something in my stomach was traveling up my chest[02:29.729]I just fell to the floor and started puking up red[02:32.914]And now the medicine is covering my hands[02:35.034]They were drenched in it this is not the way that it was planned[02:37.965]I crawled to my bed I was barely able to stand[02:40.617]This is not what I intended I got myself in a jam[02:43.537]I ****ed up I was broken and weak[02:46.187]I never wanted to die I wanted a moment of peace[02:48.590]Felt my heart skip a beat when I woke from my sleep[02:51.233]The next day and saw the suicide note at my feed and thought[02:54.695]Hey[02:55.483]Living like a mess tryna numb my pain[02:57.880]Battling the demons in my mind all day[03:00.529]Either I'm ****ed up or I'm insane[03:02.929]Pop a pill[03:03.730]Have a drink[03:04.259]Don't break down[03:05.326]Hey[03:06.113]Living like a mess tryna numb my pain[03:08.768]Battling the demons in my mind all day[03:11.422]Either I'm ****ed up or I'm insane[03:13.825]Pop a pill[03:14.612]Have a drink[03:15.154]Don't break down